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It’s Time to Listen to the Voice

By Sharon Gorman, D.C.

The void is where God is. Empty places, empty moments are not really empty; they’re pregnant. God is the potential fullness gushing out from every empty space, the ever-present possibility of a magic moment or miraculous thought. Off the blank page jumps a cosmic summons to write your own name. Out of that silence came the opening chords of Beethoven’s Fifth. – Marianne Williamson (from her book – Illuminata)

I remember as a kid always telling my parents that I was bored all of the time. I couldn’t get enough action. My mind was racing a mile a minute and I didn’t want to let an ounce of life pass me by. I was looking for something outside of myself and I wanted it now and as much of it as I could get and as fast I could get it. I thought the idea was to keep my mind as occupied as I could so that I could be filled. As I get older I see that I don’t necessarily get filled from something outside of myself. The hole that I often feel inside of myself can be filled only by God. In the past (and sometimes present, if I’m not awake) I tried to fill that void with food, alcohol, shopping and even approval by other people. I was in a quest to feel different. Whatever I would resist would persist. If I was trying to cover up some feeling that I didn’t want to experience such as fear, anger or helplessness I would feel like it was my obligation to change that feeling and make myself feel better. Sort of how a patient will seek out our help when they are in physical pain.

If all we were to do was to cover up their pain we all know that the reason the pain was there would still be there and even if covered up the cause would still be there and if they didn’t continue taking care of their spine and life then eventually the effects or symptoms would return as would they to our office. Well lets take that physical phenomenon and take it into our emotional well being. If we never allow ourselves to feel emotions that aren’t pleasant then eventually we might not feel any emotions anymore. We can produce chemically or otherwise a numbing out. I had actually become disconnected to my feelings. I fixed my feelings instead of feeling them. That seems like a reasonable way to behave when you are taught all your life that you are supposed to feel good all of the time. Remember as a child we were taught (and most children still are) that there is a pill for every ill. Very dangerous way to live. Out of touch. Eventually I actually created crisis in my life just so that I could feel something, because I got so used to feeling nothing. In not feeling the lows the highs were kind of numb too. Then I got bored because I wasn’t feeling anything and situations and life became very predictable and empty as I started to think that I was in control of my emotions and my own life.

When I try to predict and control my life then I have a false sense of safety and a false sense of reality. If that would have continued to work I probably would still be doing it. My own will would only take me so far. I heard it said before that there is a God and I am not him/her. I believe that. Even if things turn out the way I hoped them to when I feel like I am in control, the successes are still empty as I try to control my life with my own will. Only when I can start listening to the innate voice inside of me do I receive the fullness that I so desire and often mistakenly search for outside of myself. I attempt to turn my will and my life over to God on a daily basis so that I can do God’s will to the best of my ability and I pray for God’s connection to have the strength to carry out his will. I used to know what I wanted and I prayed for that. Now when I pray I do more listening than talking. And as for answers to my prayers, I don’t look toward some mysterious sign or burning bush for answers I realize that for me most of the answers actually come from the people that I have in my life (so pick them carefully).

God talks to me through other people. God talks to me when I shut up long enough to listen and observe more than talk and let myself feel my feelings.

I attempt to listen to my gut more. I used to think that sometimes my intuition was wrong or that God was misleading me into bad decisions so that I can learn valuable lessons. I don’t believe that anymore. I believe that when I am in tune with God and something is not right I get the feeling. The phone rings, and I don’t always answer it because I don’t want the phone to be ringing just then because I want to do it the way I am doing it. I can’t blame it on God, I need to look at my control issues. I want my life to turn out so good and I think that I can make that happen if I do it my way and I live a good life. It’s not about control, it is about surrender. It is about flowing with the stream of my life and determining the direction of the stream and what feels right and not trying to make the stream flow in the direction that my will would rather have it flow. When I have been able to surrender my will “educated” and follow my innate, my life has been richer than I could have ever imagined or created by my own doing.

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Dr. Sharon GormanDr. Sharon Gorman is a graduate of Life Chiropractic College. Upon graduation, she associated with her mentor Dr. James Sigafoose. She opened her own practice in June of 1985 and in 3 months was seeing over 100 patients a day. Within 4 years, she had established four chiropractic practices seeing combined over 5000 patients a month. Now, married with 4 children, she still practices part time and manages 3 successful practices. She is a speaker at Dynamic Essentials, New Beginnings, Parker Seminars and is the founder and hostess of the Focus Philosophy Weekends. Visit her website at: www.focuschiropractic.com

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